Innocent as I Am
I am just an ordinary teenager living in this chaotic world of love. If and only, I have thought of this before, I shouldn't have made the biggest mistake in my life. This made a great impact unto my upbringing. I trusted him, treated him special, showed enough love and care and I even prioritized him over my family, but he failed me. :’(
It happened Christmas eve of year 2006; I opened a gift given by my so-called "special boy". I was totally disgusted when I found out that inside it was three pieces of handkerchief. I asked him why? He said, "I'm sorry but I will be making you cry a river of tears tonight, I am inlove with your bestfriend and she's better than you". I requested him to repeat what he said, hoping that he was just mistaken, but he really have said it exactly the same as his first statement. What a downfall, what a curse, I was deeply hurt. This excruciating pain exasperated me. I hated it when I found myself crying but there was nothing else I could ever do, but regret of what had happened. This was the worst Christmas Eve in my entire teenage life.
This experience of mine, made me realize that I was so immature and misguided. Trusting and loving him was one of the craziest mistakes I have done. But I also have found out that loving was a learning process, the moment I fell in love, I learned how to love and sacrificed everything just to prove myself worthy. But when I made mistakes, I learned how it felt to fall and got hurt, but learning don't have to end there, I also learned that the reason why our relationship did not work and last longer, was the fact that I deserve someone better.
